Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Shihan, posted at 5:59 PM
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Hello, I'm back t bloggin'
Uh huh, ima gonna change my blogskin itssssss soo emo-ed ):
& my BF hates it (:
Aha, after near 1½years, the pampered, emo, unreasonableeeee girl here is finally attached
Guess whose the fortunate one?=x ROFL, and I'd learnt t be thick-skinned from him
Okay, Sum up of everything.
HAN IS NOW LOVED (:
Kays, I love my friends, I missed sumi & I really really love my family. x3
Mummy, I love you forgive me alright? (:
I love my shadow didi, sweetie lex & ALL OF THEM cause they really really accompanied me thru my CNY (: LOVESSSS
& seriously speaking, I missed those time w elvis, xian, cassy & all.. My daddy bw especially..
Suddenly so much t say, nd couldnt really sum up. duh, ima lousy sum-er LOL
I missed shermaine, weijie too. MY pioneer friends uh. (:
& guysssssss, I promise to love & stay w all of you alright? x3
Give me time, time is all I need, promise.
Thursday, January 3, 2008
Shihan, posted at 4:03 AM
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My dearest boy, I think it's time for me to let go.. To really let go..I don't know if I'm too sensitive or what. but, you'd changed, really changed.Remember I'd asked you on one occation, " Baby, is it you or me who'd changed? "You replied me straight.. " It's me. " And do you know tears dripped down my check almost immediately? I couldn't help it, but to love you, just too much..I do understand, but I just feel that, you don't care bout me anymore..I'm not being petty, but... Everytime, you're ignoring me and talking to the other girls out there.Yes, I do know.. They are your friends as well as mine.. But, just that you ain't replying me.Sigh. Sweetie.. I think it's really time for me to let go. The most, I'll force nyself to do it..Baby, don;t blame you.. But myself. For being uncapable to understand you. & sometimes I do feel like I'm unreasonable.. But, I really need your attention. I'm wrong.. Sigh, maybe I should really give up. After months of being miserable.. I'm tryin' to let go.. & move on.Now playing, Don't Move On..
Monday, December 3, 2007
Shihan, posted at 1:25 AM
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I'd finally understood why are you soo in love with her.She's nice, humourous, understanding.. & above all, she's herself.Well, after a week or so of whining, quarrelling, sobbing & stuffs. I'd realised once again.I'm just like everyone else. Well, maybe worse then some?I guess, our future & happiness had to be earned. Afterall, this is life.I'm gonna be soso nice to everyone. & even better to some.I'm sick of making enemies. Let me love you guys alright.I'm feeling guilty of not able to help. & the sour feelings in my heart really make me feel like shouting & crying with a pillow on my head.Gosh, is this another growing up?I guess I'd learnt too..Aisha, altho you wouldn't be reading, I just wanna let you know. You can make alot of mistakes, but if you continue on, you're being silly. You know what I'm trying to tell you.Love yourself, before people loves you. & you know your dearest pooh will always be here for you. I love you girl, be strong.Bro,if you'd been tracking & spying on me. Please, read this. I'd heard everything from mummy, I'm really very sorry to hear that. You know we love you. But, dont force yourself.If you're tired, go rest. It's okay for you to rest. But continue on after that. Alright? Don't overwork, you know we love you.Dear sher,dear, you are too young to understand what I'm doing now..Well, you'll go through one day. You're a strong girl.You have a wrong idea of me, but anyway, thanks for being there.I'm not seeking for attention, but love. Anyway, it doesn't matter anymore. cause, i love all of you.. thank you dear for always be there. You know I'll be there too.. (: Dont worry. Im fine..After the many days of thinking, I'm now in another stage of my life..Weijie,if you does read it'll be great.. I'm sorry for all the stuffs that I'd done. But I only wanna care.As a friend. Please, don't avoid stuffs. Face it, avoiding isn't the way to settle. & you know alot of us care. I know your problems. & I promise, I won't be adding up to it. Promised..boy,Be happy & remember all that I'd said.I'll love you, like how i'd always do.. & I understand that we must have limits.I finally realised why is it so.. & I finally realised how foolish I was.You'll always be the guy for her. She's fortunate. (:& I'll always be here for you alright.Painty girlgirl !Thanks for everything. Thanks for trying..Thanks for making me happy. & thanks for those words you'd said.(: THANK YOU GIRLGIRL!Guys, I'm fine now. All the miserable times are over..Sorry for negleting at times. Thanks for all.
Monday, November 26, 2007
Shihan, posted at 11:44 PM
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Finally found time to blog. ha, cause delph is down :D
& its OFF DAY! Gosh, my blog sure is dusty.
Sigh, this whole month of November really sucked.
Almost everyday's Friday th 13th, bad things keep coming.
New haircut, New hair colour, New friends, New beginning.
Yes, am very disappointed with my good friends, whom I'd always thought they are.
Maybe they are just acquaintance, maybe friends really do come and go.
I'm just so..... dumb, so silly to actually always give in.
Things ain't improving.
All of the sudden, people starts intruding my life. Becoming a part of it.
You know I love you now, but there's really no difference. I'm still han, and you're still you.
We could never be together unless you let go of her. & it's impossible.
shihan ah shihan, please wake up, you think this is what? Enchanted? *laughs.
It can never be.. Our life doesn't have happily ever after, or knowing this person for one day and you fall in love with him and marry ._.
This could never happen, you have to go through a date and stuff. Crap, why am I using the lines of the movie..
Okay, friends are... becoming lesser.. Maybe I don't deserve a true friend?
Maybe I don't deserve a true love. ha, true love kiss?
"Baby, I love you." bullshit alright. you know nothing bout me. & you said you love me?
lol. maybe I'm refering to myself too.
Sigh, I always thought I could stand on my own.. But, things ain't like that.
I need someone.. I need someone to go on together with me..
I'm not strong, I'm not the macho girl.
I'm just a vulnerable shihan, a normal girl just like everyone else.
Please, don't give me anymore high expectations.
I'm tired.
Everything's in a mess. & I seriously am lost.
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Shihan, posted at 10:38 PM
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Now that I know, he cared!
but, I can't have high hopes cause, I know it's impossible.
I'm giving up, slowly..
Went to the charity show on Sat. It was fun, with all the singers. & Taufik grew plump.
After that, went to the Prata place. Had great pratas (: ( There goes my diet plan. Zzz )
I'm bored, don't feel like going out too. Just wanna rest at home.
Gonna work real soon =(
I'm tired. Gonna go t bed (:
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Shihan, posted at 9:07 PM
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Woots ;DBelicia got a blog ~ I'm so gonna link youuu (:I'm boreddd ~ Gonna go out real soon.Maple leveling like mad ;DI love my classmates. I wanna go out.You know what? I suddenly have this urge...I felt bad, not accompanying my dad. I really couldn't imagine, everynight, he's eating alone.Going out, sitting in a table & eat alone. I feel so sorry. I know he's a nice dad. However, I couldn't do anything t help. I really hope that everything would turn up like before. Just like when I saw four of us, happily in the picture. Carrying me, with my playful brother. Mydad & mum are still loving. I know this had ended long ago, but I really missed those days. I really missed it. Things were fine.. Just bored. I miss them & him too.Everytime see him talking to other people, it suddenly felt like there's something pricking my heart.Had this dream, kept thinking about it. It's so.. amazing.I wouldn't really go think about a dream but it just kept coming to my mind.There's someone, protecting & loving me. But I just couldn't remember his face.Then, I fell off the escalator, I was so afraid, but I was saved. Then alot people appear.& it felt so fun. Sigh, if my life could be like that, w my loving family..
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Shihan, posted at 7:09 AM
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The break's arriving soon. (:
I've got so much t do. & I wanna learn French, Japanese & Korean.
& of course improve my english.
Wow, suddenly felt so.. Free? A short break for a moment. Then let's work hard together again.
;D Maple, friends. Break.
Am now thinking of where t go. Ha, too early?
Nah, time passes fast. Real fast.
Oh ya,my precious maths teacher said, ' who ask you don't want study earlier? See, now that you have to mug so hard. Ling shi bao fuo jiao is not going t help.' I replied,' What! I bao fuo jiao 2 weeks ago okay.' & guess what? He've got nothing t say. Hahaaa ;D
I wanna go to a place where there's wide clear blue ocean, thin, pale sand & of course w my loved ones. Really gonna go there, soon. Real soon. ;D Love all of you x333
HAN,