I'm freaking tired alright. Wasn't in good spirits today.. Woke up, without any sms from him.. ):
Dad's irritating me.. I will wake up! Don't have to keep shaking and call me to wake up. Let me get that few damn pathetic minutes of sleep will you ?! Gosh.. I'm so fugging shag. School wasn't great either..
So many damn projects on.. I'm gonna go mad soon! VERY SOON! I'm just so sick pleasing people, pretending that I'm ALL FINE with that great smile . (:
The thought of myself, failing things that I wouldn't usually will scares me.. I really seemed so useless, so small and tiny. Damn. What's so fucking wrong with me. I have no idea alright. I really need a break. If not I will BREAKDOWN sooner or later. Okay, life's sucking for the moment. So I'm gonna clean my ass and sleep! Obviously studying again when i wakes up. Sigh. I WANT YOU! fucked up. AND IM GETTING FATTER. zz